I am not the master builder of my life. God is.
We live in a world that is driven on gift economy, which is the idea that valuables are given with an implicit agreement for future reward for the giver. This idea often pervades our personal relationships from parent-child to romantic to friends. We often give in the expectation of receiving. That is not how God designed relationships.
I do not know about you, but the signs above Jesus on the crucifix never made sense to me. Almost every crucifix we see in churches have INRI written on them. That's all fine and good. INRI stands for "Iesus Nazarenus Rex Iudaeorum" which means, "Jesus of Nazareth, King of the Jews" in Latin. That makes… Continue reading The Sign (+ Other Pics from Rome!)
We can blame circumstance, other people, God, and ourselves, but sometimes we are just avoiding the fact that we're in the messy middle and that things need time to take shape. We need time to take shape. We need to be transformed, and if we embrace the process, we can be.
Years ago, I ran across a book called The Cloud of Unknowing, which (fittingly enough!) was written by an unknown author in the 14th century. It basically talked about how life on earth is nothing certain and how we must be content with unknowing, instead loving and trusting the Lord. I probably need to pick this book… Continue reading Walking in the Fog
I want to come home. I want to see goodness where I feel bitterness. I want joy where I feel pain. I want peace where I feel uncertainty. I want to belong where I feel disconnected. As hard and humbling as it will be, I want to come home.
I pray like an adult with a bulleted agenda instead of like a child who just wants to sit with her father.