Jesus desires for me to have good gifts, but ultimately, He cares more about my heart than my comfort.
What if we're not doing anything wrong? What if precisely where we are, who we are, what we're doing, and how were struggling is where God wants us to be? And what if, quickly and easily, God will lift our burden when He decides it's time?
We are at Jesus' disposal. If He wants you to be sick in bed, if He wants you to proclaim His word in the street, that's all right, everything is all right. We must say, "I belong to you. You can do whatever you like. " And this is our strength, and this is the joy of the Lord.